XXVIII: Can I go into labor now?

Ugh. I'm so sick of waiting.
Either I lost a lot of weight during this pregnancy, or Iris will be bigger than her sister. During Lily's, my belly button never popped out. It did this weird duck-bill thing at the top but that was it. At 8 mths (almost 9), you look at my belly and you can say "Turkey's done!" My back hurts, my head hurts, my everything hurts...my hands and feet keep swelling. I'm still getting sick from my low BP... *sigh* Did I mention I'm sick of waiting?

I cleaned out the car (almost). It was the most disgusting thing (next to month old dishes) that I have ever seen. J comes out and goes, "Don't throw away the cups from the gas station. I said too bad and threw them away. I was peeling random shit out of the carpet; we were not keeping anything from that car. I'm not done. I want to scrub those carpets and clean the rest of the stuff I missed before Iris gets here. The only reason I didn't finish is b/c my husband started lunch and then pestered me outside. But at least it's decent enough right now. I'm still not satisfied. I do not want to place my newborn child who has no immunities yet in a trash can on wheels.

Her crib is built; I have the co-sleeper set. My back is packed. Her bag is packed. Her sister's bag is packed. The laundry's done. She has most of what she needs. The car seat is set up in the car... Can she come now? I'm done! :)

Anyway, here are belly pics of the 7th and 8th month. I'll be taking a belly pic in a couple of weeks for the 9th.

What I think is amusing is that you can now see my veins. Why? Because I am so stretched out i have NEW stretch marks and my skin hurts so bad, even after putting on lotion. This child is either going to be large, or I just lost a lot of weight.

That is all.

XXVII:

SO my blood pressure has dropped considerably. Which explains all my dizzy spells and nausea and everything that I have been having. My BP, which is usually 120/58, was at 96/46. My OB saw no problem with this. I understand her logic, but she doesn't seem to understand my panic. I have a toddler. She's 20 mths old and likes to terrorize not only the house, but the dog. I have to constantly chase after her to make sure she doesn't kill herself, the dog, or me. My husband works nights and is asleep during all this commotion. I do not drive and walk everywhere. I CANNOT have my BP drop to God knows where and take the risk of passing out. True, I know that BP drops at the middle and goes back up again near the end...*ahem* I'm in my 8th month, when exactly is "the end"?

*sigh* It's just frustrating. I've done everything I can possibly do to not get dizzy. I eat small frequent meals to keep my sugar up. I drink water every half hour. I get up slowly, and if I lay die it's on my left side. I am cooped up in the house b/c the temp is in the 70s and not the 90s like it is outside. I still get dizzy, I still get sick and if I don't lay down IMMEDIATELY, I collapse. This is getting ridiculous.

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