Monday, April 16, 2007

XIII: Ugh...

DISCLAIMER: this is a bit TMI, not too much though.

So Friday morning, after feeding Lily and drinking some juice, I go into the kitchen to make myself a bowl of cereal. I start gagging a bit, which is nothing new as I've had massive nausea since day one, until it got stronger. I run to the bathroom, knowing the signs (salivating, tightening of the skin around my face), and threw up nothing but a pink blob of mucous (sinus drainage and juice) and bile. No fun. J was a sweetheart and rubbed my back until I was okay again.

Saturday passed without any problems. My allergies were at a minimum and so was the nausea.

Sunday evening, dinner time, and about an hour after eating, I go into the kitchen to throw something away and have to run to the bathroom to vomit. It hit so hard this time, though, that I sat over the toilet, vomit drooling from my mouth and nose, and cried. My face and body hurt from the retching, and my insides hurt from the bile. Even though I had eaten, 90 percent of it had been bile. J stayed with me in the bathroom until I had calmed down and afterward I lay down in bed.

No matter what I take the nausea won't go away. I've been sitting here, for about two hours, slowly eating soda crackers and drinking carbonated water to settle my stomach. I've tried peppermints, Pepto.... I'm just too tired and to sick to care now. I need to sleep anyway.

XII: Big Girl Bed

My mother in law bought Lily a Disney Princess "room in a box" set. I put it together the day it arrived, except for the bed. As soon as the toy organiser and the table and chairs were up, Lily was on them like hot sauce on chicken. It was too cute. She absolutely loves her table and chairs. Saturday morning, when she woke up, I had to drag her out of her room for breakfast because she went staright for the table and she hadn't fully woken up yet.

Yesterday, I decided it's time to put her in a regular bed. Or at least try if it didn't work out. Well, it worked out just fine. After guiding her on how to get up onto and down off the bed, she did it by herself. After fighting with her to stay in bed for a good hour, she fell asleep just fine. She did cry a bit during the night, but I think she's just getting used to the big change. I didn't wean her off the crib, she just went straight to the bed, but I thought it would have been more difficult.

Tonight she went to bed fine as well, sort of. I'm assuming she's still apprehensive. She used to sleep just fine in the dark with the night light on and the door open a crack so I could hear her. Tonight she would not rest unless the door was wide open. I'd leave it a crack, and after a while I'd hear the squeak of the door opening. The last time she did it, I just ignored it. When I went to go check up on her, she was passed out on the bed and the door was wide open. I guess it's just a fear of abandonment or something. She no longer has protective walls around her when she sleeps. I put the gate at her door, since I don't want her roaming the house if she does wake up in the middle of the night. I guess it's just a lot of getting used to for her and this helps her sleep at night. Whatever works. It bothers me none just as long as she sleeps.

So far, there have been no problems with the bed. She whacked her face pretty hard last night on the plastic rail (thank God it's plastic and not metal) when she lost her pacifier in her sleep, and she toppled backward off the side of the bed this afternoon while playing, hitting her head on the wall. But I don't see those as problems. She doesn't open her eyes when she's searching for the pacifier, so that's an accident waiting to happen, and unfortunately she learned the hard way not to lean back off the side of the bed.

We'll be posting pictures and videos soon of her and her new Princess room. ;) *sigh* My baby is growing up too fast.

Edit: 01:05 About a little over a half an hour ago I hear Lily make an aggravated noise. I check up on her to find her sitting up in bed, eyes closed, pacifier-less. I find the pacifier, put it in her mouth and watch her just topple sideways back in bed and to sleep. She's just too damned cute.