33: Lily Pix

All of Lily's pictures and vidoes have been updated.
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32: Walking

My baby's growing up so fast. She's been walking about the house all day yesterday. I was about to give her a bath when suddenly I see someone's little naked butt running into the bedroom. I wasn't able to get that, as hilarious as the experience was, but I did get her walking to Daddy. :)


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Nothing seems to be the way
That it used to
Everything seems shallow
God give me truth,
In me,
And tell me somebody's watching
Over me,
And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday I will understand
In God's whole plan
And what He's done to me
Oh but maybe someday I will breathe
And I'll finally see
I'll see it all in my baby

Don't you run too fast my dear
Why don't you stop?
stop and listen to your tears
They're all you've got
It's in you
You see somebody's watching
Over you
And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday you will understand
In God's whole plan
And what He does to you
Oh but maybe someday you will breathe
And you'll finally see
You'll see it all in your baby

No moment, will be more true
than the moment, I look at you

It's in you
You see somebody's watching
Over you
And that is all I'm praying is that someday
You will understand
In Gods whole plan
And what he does to you
Oh but maybe
Someday you will breathe
And you'll finally see
You'll see it all in your baby

31: One-two, Step

Lily's beginning to take steps!
After one or two she'll face-plant into the carpet.

3o: Videos and Pictures

All things Lily have been updated.

Pictures
Videos

29: 11 months

Wow. One more month and my baby's going to be a year old. Time has flown by so quickly I can still remember the day I had her and the long hours of labor. I remember just how tiny she used to be. How she would curl up on my stomach and fit perfectly. Now she just sprawls on top of me, her legs hanging from either side of my hips, toes almost touching my knees and her face shoved into the crook of my neck.

She hasnt started walking yet, but today she stood up by herself without the help of my legs or the couch or coffee table. She toppled over a few seconds later, but at least she's trying. She's such a brat sometimes. She knows when things please us, and she knows "no" very well, but she does things just to piss us off on purpose. She's been testing her boundaries and my patience for a while now. It's so funny sometimes that I have to walk away so she can't see me laughing. She's now "talking back" (it's a high pitched grunt and a mean face) and she bites her hand or slaps her face when she's very angry. She gets so frustrated sometimes that I'm worried she's going to hurt herself.

When she wants something she's a pro at kissing ass. She'll crawl up to you and give you a bunch of hugs and kisses while trying to get the thing that she wants. She usually does this when I have my cellphone and she wants it. A lot of times, she'll just give us hugs and kisses because she wants to. She is so smothered with love. The first thing Justin does when he wakes up is pick her up and hold her and she hugs him in return. She loves the attention. If Justin and I are hugging each other there she is tugging at our pant legs wanting hugs, too.

She's now in the habit of going to bed by herself. There are still times she throws fits but now they are very few and far in between. She just needs a snack or a bit of milk before going to bed to relax her and she's good for the night. I may read her a story or sing her a lullaby if she's still a bit fussy. She wakes up happy and very talkative. She's such a chatter box. Most of the time she's talking to herself but when she wants us to talk to her she'll just keep saying "Mama" or "Dada" repeatedly until we respond.

One night while we were organizing the closet, Lily and I are sitting on the floor while I folded clothes and Justin was standing next to me putting clothes away in the dresser. Lily starts yammering like she normally does and then goes, "Mama!" I respond. She smiles and goes, "Dada!" Justin responds. Then after a small pause she suddenly goes, "Bawoom?" Justin goes, "Balloon? What balloon? Did you just think one would suddenly appear?" Lily went "ya" and nodded her head. I'm quite sure it was all just coincidence how it played out, but it was still amusing just the same.

I can't believe my baby is growing up so fast.

28: (audio post)

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NEW PICTURES AND VIDEOS ARE UP ON LILY'S SITES!! GO CHECK THEM OUT---YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO!!

27: This was taken almost 2 weeks ago

Bow to the awesomeness that is my lack of grace! (You'll see in the first few seconds of the clip.) And Lily's a meanie. She likes smacking people around.

Don't forget, you can find more Lily videos at: (Lily's Videos, Just click this)

And all of Lily's pictures at: (LilyPix, Just click this)

26:

Teaching Lily how to head-butt was bad idea. She now bangs her head on the doors and has been head-butting her parents. It was originally just a game for us that made her laugh. I'm afraid I'll have to give her a helmet.

Someone keeps biting me with her two little teeth.

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PS -- Her second tooth just came in today.

24: Teeth!

So about 5 or 10 minutes ago, I turn and look at Lily to find her sticking something in her mouth from the floor. She was by the back door so I knew it had to be either grass, or dirt. Brown spot on her cheek indicates dirt. So I lay her on her side, stick my finger in her cheek, get bit like always....but this time, I get nicked with something. So I quickly remove the dirt, wipe her drool, move her tongue out of the way, and there it is. Her right central incisor finally cut through today, which would expless last night's restlessness.

She finally has her tooth. And she already bit me with it.

23: 9 months

Yesterday, Lily thought Wite-Out would be the perfect snack. She somehow sneaked it off of her father's lap and by the time he noticed and snatched it from her, she had already had some. I think she'll be one of those kids who eats paste... I wake up from my nap with Justin, "Where's your nail polish remover?" "I didn't bring any." "Oh. Well, in that case, Lily has Wite-Out on her face."

Quick stats:
Ht: 28.5 in.
Wt: 22 lbs 4 oz

She's such a chatty Cathy nowadays. And she does this gag-cough-hack when she wants attention. She's been mimicking Justin and I when we need to get rid of some mucus. She still has no teeth. She's been wreaking havoc. She doesn't know how to walk yet, but she is a climber - found her with her feet up in the air getting into her walker. And right now, as I type, she's trying to "get" Tinker Bell, who is tattooed on my back. She'll actually stop and clap if you clap first. She still shakes her head no. She knows who "mama" and "dada" are. And she calls her rubber duck "duh".

She was such a good girl at her appointment yesterday. She was scared shitless of the new peditrician though. She went into a state of hysteria where Justin and I couldn't help but laugh. She was about to wail and begin bawling, but no sound was coming out, her mouth was still wide open, and she kept looking back between the doctor and her daddy before she finally burst into tears. I couldn't quite understand it. She was friendly and smiling with all the nurses. I know she has stranger anxiety, but I've never seen it quite that bad before.

They had to test her iron levels and such. She yelped once when the pricked her finger but just sat there quietly as the drew her blood into the phile. The RN was telling the intern nurse that most babies would be screaming by now. She's very well behaved in public. I like that. She's a hellion at home, but good in public.

She's such a spoiled brat, but I just can't help but make her rotten.

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More Lily pictures are found at:
http://lilypix.blogspot.com/

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http://youtube.com/profile_videos?user=taintdluv2k4

22: 8 months

Seems like forever since I last posted, but in reality, I've just been lazy doing voice posts instead.

At eight months now, Lily has been shaking her head "no". She does it when someone else does, or just out of the blue. She's such a goofy baby.

Quick Stats:
WT: 21lbs 3oz
HT: 28 in


Likes:
Laughter/Laughing
Clapping (which she now does with you)
The sound of snapping
Talking (and loudly)
Shaking head
Eating
Little boys (cuz she's a flirt)
Going outside
Pushing buttons and climbing up and down things
And of course playing!

Dislikes:
Poeple arguing or hitting each other (she get's very upset)
Other babies crying (she gets very quiet)
Grown men (She cried when Justin came over. He got a haircut and looked different so she thought he was someone else.)
Ham (she gets this from her father)
Being taken away from things she wants to do.

She's teething, drooling everywhere, and waking up frequently during the night. I soothe her the best way I can. For the most part, since Justin works the graveyard shift and usually comes home around the time Lily and I wake up, I have her in bed with me on one of her more restless nights. Sometimes all three of us squish in there during the day. (It's a full-sized futon) She also has a very bad and painful diaper rash. I had to switch diapers because of this. Since our budget is tight, I started using White Cloud, bad idea. We went back to Luvs.

That's it for now. She's kept me on my toes chasing her around this apartment making sure she doesn't eat, pull, or push anything she's not supposed to.

Later days.

21: quick note

Lily and I will be moving back to Omaha with her daddy at the end of the week after next.

20: Pictures!!

Here are just a few pictures from when Lily and I visited her daddy.

Vacation Pictures!

19: 7 months (audio post)

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EDIT: 5:51 pm For the record, Justin keeps Lily's pictures more up to date online than I do, so if you want to see a plethora of Lily, which I know you do, just go to >Lily Pix (Click here!) and enjoy! :D

18: Visiting Omaha (audio post)

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17: quick note (audio post)

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16: 6 months (audio post)

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15: Happy Mother's Day

14: How cute

Lily is having a conversation with herself, and maybe the stars on the cieling, very loudly.

13: 4 months

Before I begin, Lily wants to type something: mytvukkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkf gggggggggggggffffff bhvvvvvvvvvvvvv

Anyway, here are her 4mth stats
height: 25 inches
weight 15lbs. 9 oz.

She's a really healthy baby, and she had her 4 mos. set of vaccs on Wednesday. It didn't go as smoothly as her 2 mos. one, and she turned purple from crying so hard. I hate it when she has to get her shots. One of them bruised, and they all bled.

She's now eating solids. She loves fruit. I need to buy more as I don't have enough and the ones I do have were donated to me by people from the church. We blended up a fruit cocktail and she almost ate my sister's hand in the process. She'll grab your hand and shove the spoon in her mouth if you hover it in front of her for too long. She's so funny sometimes. I love my baby.

According to my mother I am a bad mother and she has threatened to call CPS and have them remove Lily from me. All this because she had diaper rash from me forgetting to change her diaper after a couple of hours, or from leaving her with the same bib on for too long, or because I try to have her on a feeding schedule, or because I didn't have her eating solids when they told me to have her eating solids, or because on lazy days (which is almost everyday) I have her lounging about in onesies or layettes and she looks like a bum, or becuase she doesn't constantly smell like baby lotion or powder, or because I left her bag in the car since I was only stopping by for a few minutes but just as we were leaving she decides to use the bathroom and spit up...the list can go on. I may not be a perfect mother, but I know I'm a good one. Lily is happy, healthy, I play with her, and I take her everywhere I go. I"m not one of those moms who just drop their kid off anywhere just so that way I can go have fun; I take my kid with me. That's all for my rant.

And here is a picture to amuse you. I walked in and found her in her crib like this.

12: 3.5 months

My daughter has bad habits. I wonder where she gets it from...
FLASHER!


3mth Sats:
24 inches; 14 lbs 2 oz; laughs and giggles with a high pitched squeal

11:

Lily's sick, again. The second of about 8 colds this year, according to her doctor. I have a splitting headache and my body is sore. She gave me her cold yesterday and I'm not very pleasant.

She's been fighting with me all day. I have to rock her for her to sleep and even then she's pulling on my shirt, kicking me, screaming, and squirming like all hell. You'd think I was trying to smother her the way I have to cling to her so she won't fly out of my grasp. She's laying in her bassinet right now talking to herself and chewing on her thumb. I am so tired. I've been doing this for two days straight with little sleep last night. I had to call in sick at work yesterday just so I could tend to her. It's amazing on how much a child can test your patience and you still don't lose it.

She's crying again...

1o: A letter

Dearest Lily,

In a week and a half you'll be three months old. You're only a a quarter of the way to the end of your first year and so much has happened already.

You are my world. I look forward to having you wake me up every morning with your "I'm hungry" whimpers just so I can watch you give me a sleepy smile while I sing to you as you try and wake up. The smiles you give me make me know that you know who Mommy is and that makes me all the happier.

You make me smile and laugh with all you do. The way you move your pacifier and shove your entire right fist in your mouth, or choose to chew your left thumb instead. How if I kiss you too close to the corner of your mouth you turn and try to eat my face (and have actually succeeded to gnaw on my cheek a few times.) When I lay you down for bed only to come into the room a minute later and find you in a half push-up position with your head poking up above the bassinet. The fights you put up so you won't fall asleep. The way you push yourself off the side of the tub. When you smile at my voice or yell at me because you're either hungry or sleepy and don't want to be laying on your back or sitting down. How I leave you in your crib, on your stomach, your head up, panting with hunger so I can warm your bottle and come back to find you flat on your back with your feet in the air and a look on your face that reads, "What just happened?" The fit you throw when you want attention, and the smiles and giggles you give when you get it. The stories you take hours to tell. The list can go on, and I love everything you do.

You really are my world, Lily, and I'm thankful and blessed to have you with me. You were my best Christmas present and no words could fully express the love I have for you. I almost lost you, twice, and I'm full of joy every day when I see your face and your dimples when you smile. I know I tell you this every night when I lay you to sleep, but I love you. I hope that one day you'll understand just how much.

--Mommy

o9: 2 months old

Lily has her two-month appointment today. I don't think they'll give her the vaccs since she has a cold. She is getting better. She'll still cry a little in her sleep, or have difficulty breathing from the congestion, but it's slowling receding. I'm glad that throughout this whole thing, the only one who had the fever was me. I give her medicine regularly, but I still feel awful that I got her sick.

She turned two months yesterday. We did a two-month dance around the room where I almost tripped from the swing, and my mother sang "happy second month to you." I still can't believe how fast she grows. I'm now putting her in 3/6 month clothes, and that was about a week before she was even two months. Her 0/3's are starting to be a bit snug, mostly because she's so long and pudgy round the middle.

She gave me a face yesterday when she was in her swing that her father makes. He usually makes it when I've said something ridiculous and he's waiting for me to catch it. Just stares at me with one eyebrow raised. She makes the same face.


I haven't slept...

o8:

It's a nice feeling when your child holds your hand...even if it is because they fidget so much. Lily's getting sick. I feel like a bad mommy; it's because I'm sick (this time with a very bad cold) and yesterday I thought it was just severe allergies and I cuddle with her a lot. She was a bit cranky. She's used to lots of lovin', and I couldn't give her that today. I could only pick her up to feed an burp her as I don't want her getting worse.

I love holding hands with my daughter. She looks so much like me now...with her daddy's forehead and ears.

o7: A message from Lily

Lily says:


"teehee"


We took pictures on Valentine's day, and on the last picture she took, she was cheesing just like the above. I get the portraits on March 8, so when I do, I'll definitely post them.

o6: She'll be 7 weeks tomorrow

Lily's gotten so big! She has three chins, she so fat. :) She also looks more and more like me each day.

Things she does:
A VERY decent half-push-up when she is face down and doesn't want to sleep
Cries on her back if she's sleepy (she only likes sleeping on her stomach, her doing, not mine)
Gurgles and coos. Sometimes they sound like actual words--such as "arroz" (rice), "agua" (water), and "jugo" (juice)---ironically, they're all in Spanish.
Cries when you take the bottle away from her when she's not ready, even though I have to to burp her.
"Talks" to you. Even when it's not the best time to talk---as in when she's got a bottle in her mouth.
Yells to get your attention...

She's too damn cute.


And for S&Gs--do this: http://kevan.org/johari?name=Lilys%20Mom

o5:

Lily has grown so much already. She turns a month old tomorrow and she's gotten heavy, can lift her head pretty well, has had a cute little naval since her baptism, and follows things with her eyes. She's also nosey (like mother like daughter). My little chunky munkey is so cute, though. I know I'm a bit biased since she's mine, but damn it, you know I'm right.

She throws some tantrums when she doesn't have what she wants right away. Last night she was just that wound up. I had already given her 6 ounces of formula, with a teaspoon of baby cereal and an ounce of apple juice w/ water. She was still screaming for more. So I stuck the pacifier in her mouth to calm her down.

She had diarrhoea all day yesterday, so I've minimized the amount of cereal I put in her bottle and I've let her drink some water, or water mixed with apple juice. It went down today, so I was relieved. She eats like Justin -- when he does eat, anyway. But even when she's crying, screaming, or whining, she's still too damn adorable. I mess with her so much. She can't stand it sometimes, but I have her spoiled with it. She loves to be held.

She gets very quite and stares at you if you sing or talk to her. She follows the rattle. She'll try and follow you around the room if she can, and if she can't see you but she hears you, she'll turn her head in your general direction. Hell, she'll even stop eating just to pay attention to you. I love my little munster.

Today is my one year anniversary with Justin and I recieved my gift yesterday; with it were some books for Lily. They were absolutely wonderful. There's a Disney Fairies book titled Lily's Pesky Plant, and then he also sent Winnie the Pooh in Spanish (Winny de Puh), and My Love For You..., which is this tiny little cardboard type book that's written in both English and Spanish. I was very pleased. :) He knows I want to teach Lily both languages like Mother taught us as children. I can't wait to read them to her when she's a little older.

I take pictures of her almost daily. I just wish my scanner worked.

o4: Milestones

Yesterdays milestones:
Lily had her baptism (where she slept through the entire thing), which she looked uber cute in her little Christening gown. I changed her into a pretty pink onesie, and I think she was picked up too much because she threw up on herself and cried. I felt bad.


Today:
She's up to eating 5 oz. I admire all women who breastfed their children (especially those who actually managed it after a c-section). I do not have the energy or patience for it. More power to you. I also had her lay on my chest while I was flat on my back...she lifted her head completely up, and stared at me for a while.

I'm really starting to hate the baby talk my mom and sister use on Lily. It drives me nuts. Talk to my daughter like a human being, she's not a moron. I talk to her normally like I would to anyone, no matter what age. Man do I hate baby talk.

She's starting to be a chunky ass. :) And she likes it when you sing to her.

o3:

WTF?

Lily slept two 7-hour blocks last night. The kid is 11 days old, and is already sleeping through the night. One from 9pm to 4am, then from 5am to 11. She only woke up to eat.

I took her for her first stroll outside and around the neighborhood. Passed a few friends who were able to see her for the first time and they just about gushed.

My baby girl is starting to look more like me.

o2: Check Up

Lily had her one week check-up yesterday. She's a wondefully healthy baby. :) She lost a couple of ounces, but that's normal for someone her age. Everyone loves her since she's so damn cute. She has a two week appointment next week, with my check-up two days later.

My incision is fabulous. You can't even tell I had a c-section. The tape is starting to fall off, which is good since I itch. Can't scratch it yet, obviously, and I still have pain, especially when I blow my nose or sneeze, but I have motrin and viocodin that should last me a while.

All is well, and Lily can already drink 4 ounces. She can also lift her head on her own. She's only a week and a half and doing things so quickly. She was smiling all day today. :D She's being christened at my mother's church on Sunday.

Here's my munster smiling:

o1: Photos and Such

The one from the hospital:
http://www.ihaveababy.com/ihaveababy/default.asp?BID=6373&EID=8

The ones taken at the hospital:
http://photobucket.com/albums/v233/cyndi_lauper/lilys_arrival/

And the Labor story:

Water broke at around 3 am Tuesday morning.
Mother and I argued for about whether or not my water had really broken.
Went to hospital around 4:15
Was 90% effaced
Called Anniey and Kesia
Contractions, though regular at 3 minutes apart, where going nowhere, so started pitocin at around 7:40
Was given stadol two hours later and was knocked out (asleep) for a good portion.
Everything was regular and whatever. Can't remember much...
By 10 pm, was already dilated 8 cm at 100% effacement, with mad crazy contractions.
Refused the epidural b/c I could actually handle the pain, and told mother to shut up b/c apparently she was the one in labor, not me.
Kesia and I were complimented on our awesome partnership in labor scheme.
Sometime after 11 was told that Lily was stuck and that I would have to have emergency cesarean as her heartrate was dropping.
Was rolled into OR and given spinal anesthesia, Lily was taken out at 11:52 pm, not breathing, with the umbilical cord wrapped around her neck twice (which I was not told about until after everything had passed by Kesia and not anyone else--wtf?).
Heard he finally cry after freaking out that I couldn't hear her. They held her ove the screen. I started crying, and then I passed out.
Woke up in the recovery room sometime later with someone putting in a morphine drip and bandaging me up.
Was rolled (was still in the bed, shivering (side-effect) and covered in blankets) to the nursery where I heard Lily wailing and they placed her in my arms where I spoke to her and she got real quiet when I did so.
Handed her back and passed out again.
Woke up at 4 am on the 27th, mad exahusted, not able to feel anything from the bra-line down, was given a clean and crying baby, where I was helped up, and was able to breastfeed her.
The next 60 hours were an experience. I couldn't get up by myself, I was swollen, and had been bitched at by my mother, brother and sister, because apparently I was supposed to know that my child was in distress and choking. Do I look like Miss Cleo? I'm not fucking clairvoyant.
Came home on the 29th, stressed out, tired, but at least I'm doing better.

All in all, life sucks. I had a stressful pregnancy, labor and delivery, and even a recovery (which has eased since I'm recovering still), but I now have a beautiful baby girl that I'm thankful for. She keeps me on my toes and is the only reason I haven't punched anybody yet.

Hope everyone had happy holidays and a great start at the new year.